Don’t Lie To Me

The truth hurts, but lies hurt more. If you are honest right away about your opinion, then I can accept that this is the way you feel, and move on. But when you lie to me, and make me believe you want to do things that you are only going to get out of last second, and make me believe you agree, and make me see an illusion, that really hurts. I don’t want games, I just want honesty. I don’t want you to try and avoid hurting my feelings, that is what really hurts. I wish you would say whether or not you want to go, or if you don’t like something. Instead of leading me on and getting me excited for an event, say no right away if you don’t want to, and before it’s too late to make other plans. Instead of letting me believe that you don’t mind things, tell me, so I don’t feel like an idiot for annoying you for so long.

I’m a very paranoid person. If you say you don’t want to right away, I think “ok she’s not in the mood, or not really interested in that event.” If you say you don’t like something right away, I will stop. But when you humour me, it makes me paranoid. “How many things is she humouring me for?” I think. “Does she even like me? Is she just humouring everything about me as pity or just not to be mean?” Don’t humour me! I hate it! I hate annoying people. I hate making people mad. I hate having people feel they need to pretend to like me. Maybe that’s not the case, but like I said, I’m a paranoid person. I can accept honesty. It doesn’t bother me if you don’t like something or don’t want to do something. But these games hurt.

And to the other one: denial is pathetic. If you feel what you have done needs to be denied, then you shouldn’t have done it. Don’t lie to me about things that no one else could have known about. Don’t lie when the truth is obvious. I can forgive honesty, but I don’t ever forgive denial.

So now I am sitting here today having a bad day, and very irritable, because people are too afraid to tell the truth. One didn’t want to hurt me, and the other didn’t want me mad. Well guess what happened? Your lies only brought those feelings on. Some people try so hard to avoid things, and it only brings those things about stronger and faster. Don’t lie to me.