Afraid of the World

Where do I start?

I have lived a very sheltered life. I have been protected my whole life, and maybe a bit too much. Because I am worried about how things will pan out next year.

This is my last year of high school. And for various reasons, I do not have a driver's liscence. I can't be driven to school in edmonton by my mom, and I can't drive myself. So, I have to move out.

I'm excited. I feel so restricted at home. There are so many things that I want to do, but cannot do under my parent's roof. I want to be free and decide for myself, and I want to be free of daily conflict. I am ready to leave the nest, but I think there is so much I do not know.

I guess I am starting out easy. I am going to a residence of Concordia, but I have not been able to set up a meeting, and I am worried about what it is like. Is it just a bedroom? Does it have furniture (because I sure don't)? Is there a kitchen? Where is it located?

I'm worried about transportation as well. I hate buses, and I don't know how fast I will be able to adjust to bus schedules.

But college is my biggest worry. Will I fall behind? Will I be able to get help? Will I be able to manage homework? Will I have strict or unsympathetic professors? Will I be able to find my classes? How far apart will my classes be? Will it be another four years of bullying from peers?

I can't wait til my Concordia meeting so I can get this all cleared up.