It’s been months now and I am still getting rid of things that remind me of you. That just goes to show how much we shared. Thanks for throwing all that away...
I started with what I was wearing. I had the bracelet you made me, I burned that. I had the necklace we bought (well…..I bought….), I threw that away. There is the concert t-shirt that is now at the back of my closet. There was the peace crane I made to help you with your problems with the one who was out to hurt you, I burned that. I had to delete most of the pictures from my 19th birthday. I had to delete most of my pictures in general, because they were all taken by you, of you, or with you. I had to delete all the bumper stickers we shared: “We will be the old ladies causing trouble in the nursing homes”, “I love how telepathic we are”, “only we understand our jokes”, “I have someone who I call family, that really isn’t”, etc, etc, etc. I took down all the posters you left at school. I erased your message you left on my white board. I took the spare sleeping bag and pillow out of my room. I kept the Christmas gifts I intended on giving you, for my self. I deleted all the hilarious videos we made.
I gave you everything. I shared everything with you. I saved your life. I drove away the one who was trying to hurt you. I prevented her from turning everyone against you. I influenced the one you loved to ditch the enemy for you. I spent every weekend with you. I paid for everything that you got at the mall. I spent a ridiculous amount of money on fireworks for your birthday, because I was the only one who showed. I kept you sane when you were about to lose it. I helped you tend to your cuts when you didn’t want to go to the hospital. I was there for you every time you wanted to die. I put up with you ignoring me whenever your special one was around. I put up with you ditching plans with me for that one. I forgave you when you broke plans we made a year in advance last minute, leaving me alone, and lying to me about not being available (when really you just didn’t want to spend that time with me). I protected your secrets. I nearly lost a friend of mine because I spent so much time with you. You said I was your sister. We thought so much alike that we always said the same thing at the same time. Besides that we were literally telepathic. I stayed up late to make sure you were ok when I could sense you were distraught.
We shared our entire lives. We spent all the time together that we had. And then once a girl came and told you lies, you believed it and disposed of me. Even after that person did their best to make you miserable, did their best to turn everyone against you, did their best to split us all up, hurt your special one time and time over, did nothing but lie to her, to me, to you, and spread lies about you to everyone. That person was a notorious, compulsive liar, and for some reason you chose to believe the lies she told you about me. You did not question it, or even get my side of the story. You just threw me out. And even though it’s been a few months, I do not hurt any less than I did back then. You think I hurt you, but look what you did to me. You destroyed me. I have never been the same since.
How can someone just throw everything away like that? Especially after what we shared? Especially after what I did for you; what I gave to you. Especially since you know her well to be a compulsive liar, to try and split you up from all your friends. This makes no sense. The least you could do after all this is answer that question. Why did you believe her so easily? Why did you trust a liar over someone who has never given you reason to distrust?
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